Growing up

For anyone who knows me I am a person who cant say no. I went through years of therapist to learn to say no and I did well for a while (kind of) but I always worry that people would be upset or not want to be my friend or it would cause confrontation. It is just easier to say yes and deal with it.
The first week I started back into school for the semester was hectic. I was home around 8:30, eat dinner, shower and go to bed. There was no me time, there was no Bryce time. the 2nd week I would get home at 8:30 do homework, eat dinner, shower and around 11 or so I would attempt to hit the pillow. I told myself on that 2nd week it was only that I was running around getting book and supplies while trying to fit in work and hair both that I was so busy and it will calm down.
Last week I got another call for a new client. I love building up to new clients and I love doing hair but I have been dreading getting they stuff scheduled in with people who are so demanding and don't see eye to eye with my schedule. Its draining. I lost it. I cried. I yelled. I pouted. yes I did. Bryce told me it was because of my hormone levels but I knew it was because I was feeling neglected, doing some neglecting myself, and to be honest I am EXHAUSTED running around like a chicken with its head chopped off. In the midst of my blubbering I told Bryce that I was done with hair for the semester. If I didn't do this I would soon learn to hate it. He told me to rethink it later when I wasn't hormonal and so needy..
Yesterday I got a friendly reminder from my teacher that we are 6 weeks in to school.. 6 WEEKS! where did that go? and yet my schedule still has not slowed down. I have thought alot about what to do. My house is lacking, Bryce is starting to wear stinky clothes because I am so exhausted that I literally did NOTHING the whole weekend. Its great.. Now to the point of my story..
The new client I told you about last week, I said no.. no for the first time ever. This morning I came to the conclusion that I am doing no hair until the first week in November(except the commitments in which I already made.. and that is one person and she knows who she is). I need me time and I need time with my baby. I was also asked to do a continuing client and again I said no.. not until the 2nd week in November. I will write it down now. I said no! for the 2nd time I think in my entire life. I can not believe it. All that money for counseling is finally paying off. FINALLY. I just have to remember what she told me.. and keep that in mind.
Sorry about the rambling..

Facebook

I think I have FINALLY given in to a facebook account. I am not one to jump on facebook, myspace, or twitter. This is not a permanent thing but I thought I would give it a try. I am still have anxiety about it, it is just alot to take in all at once and I kid you not 20 minutes after I got my profile up I had a request from my mom. That request is still sitting there, I am debating what I want to do with it. I am still keeping this blog for more 'personal' matter.. AKA my family and leaving my facebook as a place to post our more generic things in life. We had some friends move yesterday and they are moving FAR away. Our hearts are broken and it was a sad but joyous goodbye for they will be starting a better life. One of the best ways to keep in contact with them is by facebook and to be honest it is the ONLY reason I am officially on there.. wish me luck..

More Photos and Update

The last 3 weeks have been crazy busy.. I mean Really crazy busy. I haven't had much time for myself and when I do have a breathing moment I am typing away on my computer doing the dreaded homework. I thought while I have a moment to sit down I would update. I am not feeling well so homework can wait. While I have been busy with school Bryce has been busy filling in the gaps and cleaning up the messes I make. I have such a great guy! He has been helping with cooking, cleaning, laundry and even helping me with my homework. He had no idea that when I signed up for school I enlisted him too! Thanks baby for all the work you put into making things easier for me when I am so dang busy!

I also have some more photos from my friend Beckah! As I said before she is an amazing photographer and I feel real spoiled have someone take such good care of me. Give her a call, send her an email, you wont regret it! beckahlaine@hotmail.com She will also being doing pictures for Bryce and I come winter time and I am super excited.. even more excited to post them! Enjoy!!!

This one was put up last time also..
















This one I put up last time but it was in color. Love the black and white






This one I also put up last time in color, again love the black and white

Happy Birthday Twin!!!!

I have some of the greatest friends ever! I cant believe it has been a short 9 months since I met Brit but we have come to the conclusion we were separated at birth. From our thoughts on the twilight book, how we hold our pens, our taste in clothes.. although she is more daring than I would be to our past experiences in life. We can talk for hours.. literally. Call each other up to cry.. you name it we do it together. She is one of my greatest friends and will be for the rest of my life. Happy birthday Brittany!!!!!!

Great Photgraphy

This last weekend I found myself all by my lonesomes.. after spending Friday night wishing our good friends a happy farewell to starting a new life Bryce decided to pack his bags and start hiking.. literally. He headed up the canyon with the boys for a weekend of no me.. sniff sniff. I spend sat night getting dolled up for a very good cause. My friend Beckah is a great photographer.. I know everyone has one but I assure you she is the best and I think her pricing is very affordable. I have never had a photographer pamper to me so much it was great! She really pays attention to the details and will find poses that are fit for you (and whoever is with you) ok enough of my praises, find this out for yourself!!!!! If you would like to contact her to set up a shoot, get prices or other info you can email her at beckahlaine@hotmail.com Here are some of the photos she took.

I will start with Beckah's favs first (I hope I got them right!)

Here are my favorite favorites:

I love them all and they are all my favorites so here are the rest..

And the stick says...

I love my nieces and nephews. I love holding them. I love smelling them when they are babies and get out a fresh bath. I love taking them places. I love showing them off to everyone. I love hanging out with them. I love to spoil them and most importantly when they start screaming I love sending them back to their parents.. oh and I LOVE buying the noisy toys with extra batteries for them. I am sure paybacks are going to be a bummer. I have learned my lessons through them all for my future kids.. heaven help me! I thought I would share a few pictures of a couple out of the 15 I have

Emi Aug 2009

Joshua march 2008

Joshua Oct 2007

Chad and Cam June 2007

Chad, Julia, and jayce (with bryce and my bro greg) May 2006

Emi Oct 2005

Mason Jar Sept 2005

Abbi July 2004

oh and in case you were wondering, the stick say positive! I am going to be an aunt again!!!!!! 16 here we come.